(not in this story really; he is just assisting to give you a visual)
So unlike the usual work me I was wearing make-up and had my curls loose and I was turning heads..... (at least in my mind I was). Then I see him - this cute, cute boy. I don't think boys are cute that often, I think us girls tend to get the shorter end of the stick on this... there are many more better looking chicks then dudes. In fact - every guy I have ever dated I never thought was that cute when I first met him - usually his charm won me over and then I couldn't help thinking he was cute after knowing his personality. Even the bartender I got dolled up for I could take him or leave him.
But this was not the case - I was in love - at first sight. And he asks me "where is your philosophy section?" so I think wow, the boy has brains and is interested in a subject I like. Chances are he is atheist or something like many of the philosphy guys I have met in college classes. Hey! I figure: it is my job to straighten out the books: I think I will go straighten out the books that happen to be around him. He was sitting in the section I was in for the night anyway. Already I have little birds flying around my head and butterflies in my belly. So I am fixing the books on the lowest shelf in front of him and nothing happens... so after I am done with the books around him I decide to forget it and mosey onto an other area. And I had some books to put away so I am going from one aisle to the next when I see him again - and I notice him going back and forth between the aisles too, I realize he is trying to get my attention! And then he asks me -- are you ready...
"Do you have a CATHOLIC philosophy section?"
I think my jaw dropped - I asked him if he was Catholic and he was and we began talking about Thomas Aquainas and other Catholic things --- A guy who is smart, cute, interesting, dresses well, and into the faith I hold dear to my heart... I am thinking, so, God, is this the one? Is it that easy? In my head I am singing "I'm so excited, finanally it has happened to me". I am helping him look for a book and I reach for one and he reaches for one and our hands brush against eachother.... my heart skips a beat and so we are talking... and I never ask guys out but I am thinking if he doesn't ask for my number soon I am going to invite him to something - Search or a bible study or anything for an excuse to hang out... when he says
"my WIFE and I...." I don't remember the rest, I should have known, he did dress well...
to which I said "yeah, it was nice meeting you, have a nice day, good bye"
I have never fallen in love and had my heart broken so very quickly.
Is God playing a cosmic joke on me? Well, with a single girl who hasn't had a date in over a year - IT"S NOT FUNNY! I'm so depressed. Don't laugh at me.
